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Dear Mom and Dad
Dear Mom and Dad,
I have a confusion to make. No im not pregnant. I wanted to tell you that I am emo.  All theses years you have failed to see that mostly everything I do is fake.  Te smile you see is fake. The laughs you hear are fake.  The happiness you see is also fake.
The smile is just a cover up for my frown. The laughs you hear are just a cover up for my tears. And the happiness you see is just a cover up for my sadness. I’m telling you this because usually when most parents find out their child is emo they then start to not care.
So I’m telling you this so just in case one day comes and I’m not there. You’ll know where I am. All these years and its still hard for me to believe you couldn’t see all the pain behind my mask. Everyday when your not looking a cry to myself and wonder why im here.
I think about life and how muck happier you would be if I wasn’t there.  I’m telling you this in advance Mom and D
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Why do I feel so much pain inside? Why do I still search for the light?  Why does everyone hate me? Why do they laugh? Why? Why? Can’t they see im in pain? Can’t they see they hurt me? What if I ran away would anyone care? Would anyone cry? Would anyone try to find me? Would anyone worry?  No! No one care no one would cry no one would try to find me no one would worry!! Because in this world im all…. Alone..
Behind this mask is pain.. I can fake a smile so you won’t see me frown.. I can fake a laugh so you won’t see my sorrow.. I can stand in the rain so you won’t see my tears.. And I can stand in a thunderstorm so you won’t hear my screams of pain… but what I can’t do is stand here and tell you I love my life and I never frown because that would be a… lie..
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I feel like crying me eyes out. Like I should not be here right now. I feel all my hopes slipping away I feel all my dreams slowly getting to far away to where I can't reach them. Should I be here? Should I just go away? I have been told many times to do that. So then why don't I?
I always have to put on an act so no one knows I am hurting. I always smile and tell everyone I am good or nothings wrong. But really I am a wreak and really I need someone there to help me out. But no one comes. Is it because they don't care or what?
What am I supposed to do? Just sit in the corner and cry till someone finally hears me? Or do I just give up? He never loved me he just pretended to like everyone else. So I as I sit here and cry. I wonder why am I here?
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forever loving you
I've have been waiting for you forever. But you never came. I am starting to get the feeling you don't care anymore. I've waited and waited but you still never came.
So now it is time I tell you good-bye. I'll miss you so much. But I guess we weren't meant to be. You told me you loved me. But that's not true. You told me you would always be there for me but that was also a lie.
I can't believe I feel for your stupid lies! You will never change and I can't expect anymore out of you. So as I stand here on the bridge. And remember all those times. With you and me I hate myself forever loving you….
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United States
Current Residence: wuts it to u?
Favourite genre of music: rap hip hop
Favourite photographer: ?
Favourite style of art: ?
MP3 player of choice: mp4
Shell of choice: idk
Wallpaper of choice: blue
Skin of choice: my skin
Favourite cartoon character: itachi, deidara, cloud
Personal Quote: my lips keep moving but all i hear is blah blah blah
  • Listening to: welcome to my life by simple plan
  • Reading: manga
  • Watching: tokyo mew mew
  • Playing: kingdom hearts
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: water
1: be on american idol
2: make a home for kittens/ ctas
3:make an anime :w00t:
4: sell a record ^^
5: sky dive
6: get married
7: have 1 child

1: be brave
2: talk to guys i like
3: kill a cat
4: harm an animal
5: touch an aligator
6: swim in a lake
7: go on fear factor :fear:

1: bleh
2: i love the rain :excited:
3: vincent :love:
4: flying camles :noes:
5: i tend to have that effect on ppl
6: omg
7: nya :3

1: fox and the hound
2: happy feat
3: inuyasha movie
4: naruto movie
5:  cinderlla
6: muffin man :lick:
7: my little pony jk jk :giggle:

1: sonic DX
2: shadow the headgehog
3: mario party 6
4: mario party 7
5: super smash brothers mele
6: animal crossing
7: kingdom hearts

1: Do you like animals?
yes i love them

2: Have you ever met an online friend in person?
yes sakuradrops994
and silverbluemoonwofl
3: Are you athletic?
yes :D

4: Are you thin, fat, athletically built etc:

5: How much do you weigh?
about 86 pounds

6: What's your height?

7: Shoe size?
no clue :confused:

8: Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
tomboyish all the way

9: Guys- are you girly or guyish?
im not a guy :pissed:

10: How old are you?

11: When's your Birthday?
febuary 28

12: Do you like to recieve giftart?
yes i love it

13: Are you sociable?
no :|

14: Do you have many friends?

15: What's your race?
um in white

16: Do you like to talk on the phone?

17: Are you single or taken?
taken ;p

18: Do you eat meat?

19: Are you paranoid?

20: Do you read a lot?

21: Do you listen to music, what kind?
emo, j=pop hip hop sad songs

22: Do you play an instrument?
pfft no

23: How long have you been drawing?
since i was 8

24: What's the meaning of life?
don't ask me that im not that smart!!

25:who do u love?

26: Now tag five of your friends. They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal. sakuradrops994 bloo180 neoprower777 killerzero


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LostLightningStorm Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013
hi how are you its been a long time since we talked
artfr3ak Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Ilove dear mom and dad and sadness.I give you 5 stars.
Viper-mod Featured By Owner May 22, 2009  Professional General Artist
Wicked art! =D
MrCarbonMonoxide Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2009
I open a blog named MrCarbonMonoxide’s Hand Project.
I need Help from you.
The only thing you do is to photograph your hand (left or right like you prefer) and send it at: with: “MY HAND” for object
When emailing your work please include the following details:
- Full (real) Name
- Country
- What you think about Hand
- Website or an alternative contact url where people can see you and your work (flickr, deviantart, myspace or other site)

[for now under construction]

I do that blog 'cause HANDS are very important for me, and for the World.
Hand tied and made the World.
The best things that we doing, are made with HANDS.
So What you think about HAND?

KahliRoux Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2008  Hobbyist
Happy Deviant Appreciation Day.
:icondelightfulplz: I appreciate you!! :heart:
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